Wednesday, January 03, 2007
3 plus am in the wee early raining morning, here am I, sitting in front of my office desk top, facing the computer... cold and shivering as the aircon blows on to me... Guess my mood couldnt get any worse liao.. -_-'"
When I reach the co main gate, the security asked a STUPIDEST Question.. "Why are you here?" I almost wanted to pull his hair out of his head and yell at him, "I want to queue up for the Great Singapore Sales, hoping to grab some cheap diapers".. well, back to reality, I looked up and with my aloof tone, muttering 1 cold word to him, "work.." He was kinda taken back by my attitude but still let me pass through the barrier gates.
I went through blogs of my friends... reading about their life that I had missed out for the past 6 months. MY GOD.. Jus found out that I was like a villain in the blog, being refered as HIM, will not do the same thing as HIM, ... as how HE hurt you etc. Nothing good is being mentioned about me. Perhaps, I nv did anything good in my life, except going ard hurting pple feelings. Funny thing is..I did not flare up or throw my com down 9 storeys and in my heart, I was telling myself, that's the Dan in their heart.
Just realised how defensive Humans are, always protecting themselves. Don't get the wrong meaning, I do that too. This defensive act is call selfish.
I crave for love, but pple see it as flirt. I attract attention in whatever I do, but pple think that Im showing off. Gals talk to me, but pple think Im trying to impress.
I learn how to isolate myself from the crowd, guess that the only way to avoid misunderstanding...
Take care guys...
DeViL bE wItH DaN.
