Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Recently I start to gain to recognition in my work and Im actually getting promoted at the 1st Sept. Like they say... You win some, you lose some. My gal is leaving me. No, dun doubt, she's stil deeply in love with me, its me who make her to lose confidence and trust with me. I love her as much as she love me. I never doubt her and I really appreciated her love, care and her forgiving whenever we had an arguments or quarrels. She dun hav any tempers, attitude, kind and friendly and lastly silly.. Doing sweet and silly faces infront of me just to make me laugh and brightens my day. She sacrificed her time with friends jus to be with me, quarrelled with her family for my sake, giving up alot of stuffs for me... Tell me.. this kind of gal... where to find?
But right now, Im giving her up.. because I dunno I can give her wat she wants.. She just wanted my love, my concern, and most importantly, Security. She was always so scared of me chatting with girls, close to them and I guess its true. Im a guy that likes to make friends with gals, building up close friendship with them. No wonder my gf would feel insecure. Im a JERK.. But like she says.. its born in me, yes, maybe I like to make gals feel attracted to me, but I dun get into any relationship with them while Im with her. Perhaps, no one will ever know abt wat I wrote here, not even her I guess. She thot I had given up BLOG long long time ago but I got back to Blog recently without her knowing it. This is a little secret of mine. Just to write down all my feelings and not letting anyone know abt it.
Right now, she wrote this somewhere... "Time will heal the wounds but scars stay forever..."
When I saw this, I was taken back, I dunno should I still cont the relationship or just learn to let her go. From her statement, I think the relationship wouldnt be the same anymore. I love her. I had given her promises... I wanted to fulfil it but now.. is it stil possible??
I really hope for more time to let us reconsider the relationship and not just 2days to do all the decisions and regretting in the future like the last time.
I will go to hell when Im dead... May Devil be with me...
DeViL bE wItH DaN.
