Friday, June 17, 2005
Today... I had the worst confrontation with my a guy whom I regard as my best friend, brother.. As I went back to Ot, he was workin also and he approached me and jus told me, if the co is goin to hav a new position, he will not fight for the post with me as he wanted to leave the co le.. So I dun hav to go ard and spread rumours about him, saying he's lousy, incapable, cannot be compared with me etc... DAMN... the moment when i heard all these I was really shocked!!
I SWEARED I never give a single negative comment about this good brother of mine from poly times.. Infact I always respect and admire his character and ability, which is a role model for me at times.. I never doubt his capabilities... but I really dunno who was the F**ker that told him all those rumours.. Im suspecting someone but couldnt confirm. Never mind, but right now I can only say Im very DISAPPOINTED.. I always regard him as a brother, even if he would to get that position, I would not say a single word cos I know he deserve the post. I would congrats him from the bottom of my heart.. But now jus becos of a person, he actually had doubts in me.. I was not actually angry but definitely disappointment filled me up...
After telling me all these, he was back to normal self, joking ard as if nothin happens.. But for me.. my whole day mood was totally spoilt! Later at 4lus, he came to me again and told me not to have any hard feelings.. I didnt response much though.. cos I dunno what to say to him also.. I jus smiled back and cont my work..
Later in the nite, I sms him to him how I feel.. cos I thought it would be good for me to tell him how i feel. I dun wish to let this misunderstanding go on and on... haiz...
Somehow I realised that all of us must start growing up and dun live in the past le... throw those happy poly times, army brotherhood aside.. be prepared for the harsh and cruel fact of the society, where back stabbin and rumours spreading are usual. No one to be trust except urself, no one to say secrets to except urself and must learn how to please everyone in ur working environment, the management, colleagues, supervisors, even the cafe staffs or cleaners if you want to get recognised and promoted fast..
Learn how to "WAYANG" and impress the right person at the right time, learn how to say YES always and only praises for everyone and no negative remarks although a colleague might really sucks at work. 1 more important thing, DUN outshine everyone to show your capability, in the end, u would only be labelled as OUTCAST. Instead, when everyone laze, do the same thing, the most everyone suffers the same shit. When do work as a team, offer more help to them to show ur concern.
I have DAMN lots of theories behind all these.. I learnt and got backstabbed to come out all these. Dun flame me if you people who believe tat kindness live in Man... Its true that god input kindness in our body when we were born.. But ask yourself... hav you lost tat touch and feeling of kindness? When's the last time you did a donation without hopin to WIN tat COndo or luxury Car??
So... my conclusion is... Man equals EVIL.. and to LIVE... learn EVIL.. go and note abt the spelling between these 2 words and you will understand relationship between them.
May Devil Be with US....
DeViL bE wItH DaN.
