Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Very lazy and tired to blog... My mood isnt there after clearing all my bills.. haiz.. another painful month to go before I can be "rich" again... all my BLOODY credit card bills are KILLING me..
I went for the movie "Madagascar" this afternoon. Its suppose to be a animation/ cartoon. A light-hearted and funny movie I must say... but I couldnt even laugh abit out... Jus dun hav the mood to do so.. My whole mind was thinkin of how to settle payments, earn extra cash.. Dun get me wrong, I wasnt in any debts... AND I would NEVER get into any cos I nv like to borrow cash or whatever... I just dun like the feeling of owing pple.. The feelings SUCKS..
Next... at MSN, I realised why my Closest GAL fren was ignoring me suddenly... It must be due to tat time She need my help and I didnt reply to her or wat... IM SORRY... really very sorry... I dun wan to lose a very good fren like her... I reali dun mean it de.. I treasure our years of friendship and all the laughters and heart-to-heart talk.. I hope she will forgive me soon... sorry babe....
I dunno wats wrong with my life rite now... Im such a failure in almost everything... I need a break.. reali.. a break from my current life... Several options available... death, change lifestyle, change job, change mentality...
Death- easiest way out.. Might opt for it..
Lifestyle- nothin to change, im almost no life person.. so wat to change
Job- another probable solution, but a challengin job with high pay.. where to find?
Mentality- forget it.. its set the day u r born... how can u change...
Conclusion..... Death...
Haha... Just some wild thinking of mine... ( But I nv say i wun do it..hee) Life is reali HARD now... everythin needs $$... LOVE needs $$, food needs $$... even lazin at home needs $$ too... Grgh!!!! I goin CRAZY LE!!!!
DeViL bE wItH DaN.
